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| Wow. It has been so long since I have written on this. Way too much has happened in the past 6 months. I got help
with a problem I had. And that has been working very well. I dont want to write anything to revealing because
who the fuck knows who reads this shit. I sure as hell dont. Just an update. That all is well. That I am
managing my side of the street. Uh. So. Anyways my header is A NEW WORLD IS A NEW MIND
and I usually thought of that as doing drugs and experiencing new things. Now I have a more profound
understanding of that simple phrase. I had a used and torn and withered mind. desamated by illicit substance.
I learned a lot of things though, for better for worse. It opened up my mind for sure, again for better or for worse.
but I am glad for my life, for all the bad times and good times. I truly experienced a bottom, and I realized that Fight CLub
had some pertinent ideas but nihilism is some shit. After hitting bottom and getting my mind clear I can finnaly
and more importantly honestly appreciate all the beautiful things around me. Despite all the horrors of the world I live
here in a suburb of D.C/Balitmore. Where life is normal for the most part. And I am embracing normality. I have come to find
that most people are NOT normal. That a lot of people are fucking stupid, and most of them do stupid things, related, or unrelated
to drugs of some kind. But I dont look down anymore, and before I had no right to. I look at fucked up stupid people
as sick people, people who need to be treated like some one who is sick. Who cant help themselves. Anyways I digress.
and yes i DID just used that phrase. I am happy with my self, or am trying my hardest to be. I dont need anyone or anything to be happy.
no one besides myself can ever decide my happiness. The only thing anyone can ever change, EVER is there reaction and perspective
of things, their actions. So i have just learned to accept everything else to some extent. That I may never be with the girl who
i have adored for three years. Ahh anyways xanga is gay, I dont know why im writing this. And why are YOU reading this anyways.
Are you snooping on me? What the fuck man. Hahaha. I didnt even laugh when i wrote that. God i fucking hate
the internet sometimes. | | |
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And we took off into the sky.
to brave new and old worlds.
This traveling through time
new life it does birth
New sights and sensations
With living rocks that don't lie
These thousand ancient year creations
Stir this blood and soul inside
And wine by the Terranean
crashing waves with smooth sand
While a familiar moon
whispers a beautiful new tune
my heart and my breath now
finally have time to rest
And I know sights unseen, pushed to a grove
lights melt and unfold, in bursts in droves
my mind traversed the snow capped peaks
and it stayed there for a while
I crossed the snow and froze my nose
and where the strong wind took me
electric and transparent railways
always never point the same way
and soon Im shifting through time
Embrace the new sensations and once again Im free
oh how my eyes are white and wide
they paint immortal scenes
electric and transparent railways
always never point the same way
and soon Im shifting through time
This road has stretched my dreams
and my thoughts on everything
with light in every corner
with warmth all around
the clouds disperse once again
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| I am in the air
tracing patterns outside and in
electric roads stretching everywhere
and beneath this animal skin
and Im losing myself in an endless ocean
and Im beginning to learn to live
each breath at a time each breath at a time
and the air is no longer thin
each breath at a time each breath at a time
and the air is no longer thin
world is body phantom limb apparition
this universal recognition,
this universal recognition
i am in the air
and i am everywhere
i am in the air and i am everywhere
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caught in no particular instance
bound to no particular home
people watching from a distance
I shall take this last hit, alone
i take this last hit alone
with no eyes intently watching
i am only in their peripherals
i am only in their peripherals
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| Here is something i wrote earlier tonight with extremely red eyes. I was thinking about "dapping" and how i rarely hold a lengthy conversation with most of them. And i concluded that dapping is a subconscious reaction that bolsters a sense of community. And then i started a familiar repetitive rant about the ultimate universal sense of community. How only that perception and consciousness can save us. Were stuck on the association with nations , religions etc. Once you associate with all of existence, there are no more standards to judge against. Once you stop putting things into categories, everything appears one and the same.....
the paradigm of "dapping" plays an essential role for the perpetuation in the idea of togetherness and community. Sporadic physical contact initiates a rather often short sense of union. Thus , following the understanding that each mental event immediately becomes a biological event, these random senses of union accumulate into a perpetual sense of community.
When humans develop the feeling that they belong to a group, they are thus filled with acceptance and love. To be filled with such compassion the human body inevitably reciprocates equal solicitude. Sense of community evokes feelings of safety, sanctuary, togetherness, love.
In Cognitive Neuroscience it is known that human cognition and emotion are mapped to specific neural circuitries. Such intricate neural networks form after they are exposed to any new information. Encounters with repeated information, simply perpetuates the physical existence of that particular neural connection. Once the somatic nervous system makes contact with a human being belonging to any shared group(s) of either two persons or more , genes in our body then produce the mental/physical sense of love that has proven essential to surviving and to the perpetuation of the species throughout evolution. Love is a necessary and most efficient device to living an enlightened existence, thus it is reasonable to conceptualize a being forever in NEED of such a device. This is precisely similar to any other biological need, such as water, food, and shelter. Without love, nothing would exist. [ i would like to diverge into those last words, "nothing would exist". How can nothing, exist? .....] Hence love has forged the bonds that permeate into larger relative constructs such as nationality, religion, color etc. that ultimately evolves into a world and universal consciousness. It is where everything In existence (or existence itself) is no longer a separate series of manifestations/ideas. This state of consciousness is commonly cultivated by those who meditate. Many eastern philosophies, such as Buddhism, Taoism, Hinduism, practice such methods of attaining enlightenment, enlightenment that exist only in a selfless, aware, and compassionate reality, where everything is ONE THING. The pinnacle of ecstasy and contentment. But i digress. If kinship is the perfect expression of community, then imagine where every person in the world shares the same understanding, and compassion you find in family groups. That is harmony, "the natural way" of the universe, of nature, of reality and existence itself. It is the purest way because the WAY to evolution AND enlightenment is only possible through the most efficient, naturally occurring, biological and mental processes ... For there is a genetic sequence for being humans, and within that random sequence are the tools and devices necessary in order to LIVE (or survive). Organisms are modularly encoded with information on how to synthesize protein and other various cellular reactions/functions. Such functions are inherently necessary to any organisms survival and operate on all relative scopes and sizes. The way cells absorb nutrients from food and store energy, is the same way wolves hunt for food and squirrels store acorns. The only animals that remain are the ones who adapted to an ever changing environment and applied the most efficient survival methods. Like the digestive system, existing purely for its survival and evolution, human connections, communities and love exist. Formed because they are the only devices that allow human beings to perpetuate the species most efficiently. If hate, anger, jealousy and greed, are within any scale group, then the continuance and evolution of the group is hindered. They are not efficient devices for survival. In order to , understand, more effectively one must understand ideas BEYOND the limits/dualities of human emotion. (objectively). Thus the way of ONENESS AND SELFLESSNESS is also the way of SURVIVAL/SURVIVING/LIVING and is a precise example of "survival of the fittest". Humanity seems to be stuck in that lesser stage of consciousness, of judgement and differences, creating discord and disagreements resulting in the death of millions. This is primal, the potential to evolve exists. monks experience such evolved states of consciousness frequently during meditation. Humanities fate entirely depends on whether or not various social identities/groups can cooperate and learn to understand. Thus people "Dap" in their subconscious attempt to survive efficiently and thus experience togetherness.There is safety in numbers and the more people you dap the more secure you find your self feeling, that more and more people seem to understand you. But without awareness of these truths, than you may fall into the trap of self-absorbed detachment from reality. A reality where the ego, the separate idea of self, dominates diabolically. The ego is a manifestation the physical body implemented in order to secure itself. It exists only to determine whether something is beneficial or detrimental to the physical body. This, another device created by the human body to survive, was essential to their evolution. The ego begins to classify and differentiate dangerous and safe organisms like plants and other animals. That was eight thousand years ago. Today, many humans live a life of abundance yet they still fear. Anthropology states that the accumulation of land and wealth was the birth of abundance and thus distinctions. This has culminated to the familiar materialistic reality of today (Capitalism). Immature brains/egos fruitlessly desire to obtain more wealth and thus physical security. They cannot comprehend that there IS IN FACT, ENOUGH. That actually such tactics are detrimental to mental processes. Indulging in greed, rage, lust, and other similar emotions is the result of such cathartic behavior that occurs when feeling threatened and insecure. The brain then becomes oblivious and ignorant to all mental consequences for that one physical sense of relief. The mental consequence and reciprocate from that extreme is that the neural network, instead of associating resolution with understanding and inquiry, resolution is associated with conflict. This is learned behavior. Most happily raised children learned that playing in groups can be more fun, and you must cooperate in order to have fun. This is a reflection of what is necessary in an adult in order to be most efficient and content. That cooperation and community is the foundation to progress and evolution. There is no other way to go except forward, the human brain is so vast and intricate it is common knowledge that humans are still evolving. There is evidence of understanding the need to change in order to allow progress to flow unhindered, to flow FREELY, naturally. The only way to most efficiently deal with the increasing number of catastrophes and calamities is to UNITE! The growth of the concept of community to a global and universal plain evolves the physical brain and mental perspectives into a more efficient and consequencially happier. There is no other way. Only the way of oneness. It is the way to enlightenment and the way to evolution. | | |
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